I'd Drink... If I Could Find a Bar


 * I woke up this morning to find that Allyson wasn’t lying next to me. I
 * thought she might have ventured out to see if she could find some
 * food or something. I was angry that she would have been so stupid to
 * go outside. Then I noticed a note addressed to me sitting on my
 * keyboard. It was from her. She said she’s gotten fed up with me just
 * sitting at my computer. She can’t stand being cooped up in here not
 * doing anything, and she can no longer stand the fact that I’m not
 * trying to help us get out of here. That’s not true though! I’ve been
 * looking up important information and trying to find someone to help
 * us. It’s not like I’m sitting around all day reading celebrity gossip! I
 * want to tell her that so she’ll understand.


 * I should’ve told her that.


 * It’s too late for regrets. She’s gone now, probably off to find a way out
 * of Kijuju. Now that I think about it, she kept asking me about the mine
 * and any underground passages it might have. I told her everything
 * she wanted to know, not questioning why she wanted me to tell her
 * about that stuff. Things had been tense lately, and we’ve been arguing
 * a lot, so I was happy just to have a night without any fighting. I had no
 * clue she was going to do something like this...


 * Why would she leave me? She was safe here. I was here. She was
 * better off here with me, but now she’s out there on her own. I want to
 * go out and find her – bring her back. I’m torn. I want to go and find
 * her, but I can’t bring myself to go outside. I know I’ll be killed if I
 * do. I hate myself for giving in to my fears, but my fear is stronger than any
 * sadness. I pray that she makes it back to me OK. It’s all I can do.


 * If there’s anyone out there that can help her, please, do it! Tell her to
 * come back to me! I will protect her.